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Post by mattie amherst? on May 25, 2013 22:18:39 GMT -5
Mathew had this inner warning pulling him back from telling the young girl ”I told you so.” He knew that this was not the right moment say it. It would come but in time. It was much too recent. Te brokenness would not repair for awhile and once it did then was the time to say that he was right. Mathew was always right in his mind. He had never once been wrong or pegged a person with the wrong personality. He was right to assume that the twerp would not be around for long. Thus, there was no real reason for Mathew to even give two flying hippogriffs about him. There was a method behind his madness. Despite that Kabes would never admit it, Mathew knew his stuff. He knew relationships. He had seen enough of his parent’s rocky relationship to begin to see when things would not work out. He also had a vat full of his own experience to know about relationships. He didn’t want his cousin dating, but if she was determined to, he just wished she could see through the foolish acts of misleading boys. After all, that’s exactly who he was. He didn’t want his cousin falling for a boy who was anything like him. He was reckless.
The Cossu didn’t believe a word that came out of the Durmstrang’s mouth. Could Kabriel really be so naïve to believe the elaborate lie that he told her? Had to go back to school? Had to break up? Isn’t his fault? That sounded like rubbish to him. It was one thing to want to break up with someone, it was another thing to lie about it. Mathew felt his blood boiling underneath his olive skin. The next time Mathew saw that Son of a Banshee, he would ring his neck. Mathew was dangerous and controlled. That was what made him a deadly threat. Yet, he knew if Kabriel found out that Mathew went after him, she would be angry with him and he doubted that she would forgive him. He would resist… for now.
She didn’t want to talk to him and that was fine with him. Mathew slumped next to Kabes and swung a beefy arm around her shoulders, pulling her small frame tight against his body; he planted a familial and comforting kiss on the crown on her head. He contemplated not talking. It would be okay to just sit and listen the crashing waves beat endless against the shore. But, it didn’t feel right. Something needed to be said. It finally needed to be said and now was as good of time as ever ”Well, if you aren’t going to talk.” he paused for a moment, his eyes swept from Kabes out to the water ”I am.” He had been meaning to talk to his cousin about this but, it never seemed like the right time. It still was definitely not the right time, but perhaps it would distract her thoughts from that kid. ”I know you think I’m an idiot.” Mathew plainly stated. In all honesty, he was an idiot. He had let the best girl in the world slip through his fingers Second Year and now he was paying for it. He messed around with whatever girl he could get his claws into to make up for what he was missing out with Rachele.
”I know that when you look at me, you think ‘look at what he is missing out, that clotpot, he really mucked that up.” In reality, Rachele was perfect in every sense of the word and Mathew just was… was not. He was rash and indecisive and quite frankly tended to make a fool of himself. He never thought that he could ever be enough for the vampire. ”but, you deserve to know…” he trailed off for a moment before starting again. ”You deserve to know everything. I owe you that.” Perhaps this was the first time that Mathew had realized how much of a confident that his cousin really was. ”I messed up when I was in my second year here. And I let her go and if I could I’d take it all back,” Mathew’s voice rose slightly as he continued on. ”But, I can’t! I can’t take it back and I have to live with that for the rest of my life…” He was emotional and just as messed up as Kabes was but he showed it in a different way.
”I let her go and I turned into a monster.” Mathew choked down the eternal lump stuck in his throat. ”shes a vampire and I’m werewolf. Its my fault. I dropped the ball. I messed everything up and now I have to live with the consequences.” Mathew would forever blame himself for what happened to each other when they had parted ways. It was only after it shot out of his mouth that he realized that he had just informed his cousin that he was no longer human. He had tried so hard to keep it from everyone. The only one that knew was Rachele and now with Kabriel knowing, it was no longer going to be a secret. He was screwed.
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