Err... So... Umm...

[pandora chevalier ღ]

Umm... Hi. I really have no clue where else to post this, so I guess in here it will go.

I am Helena. I have been on this site for some time, how long I honestly do not remember, but that is not the point. A year ago, towards the end of 2012 actually, I lost my Father to Esophageal Cancer. I have been unable to move on, despite how long it has been, and have been struggling immensely. It has, honestly, influenced several things lately, from my muse to my sleep to other things. So, I am apologizing now for my disappearance and any chance in the future I might disappear.

It is just that... Well, it is something I am trying to come to terms with, but it is hard. Any ways, I am not here for your pity. I am just trying to warn everyone that I might disappear pretty soon, but it is not because I do not love you guys. It is just that I am struggling, I really am.

Fortunately though as I have my computer I will always come back to check up on things, if I do leave later on, so if I leave it won't be forever. It will just be for me to take time for myself. But as of now, I am not leaving, just a warning.

[HYO JOON NAM]

I know it sounds stupid, but I know how you feel. I lost my father in last October to lung cancer that had spread to his brains. And so far not a single day has gone by that I wouldn't have cried at least at some point. I know it's really hard. Things keep going up and down. Therefore I've been very much away from here too and just been checking out things and only lately I've started to try be a bit more active. So I get how you feel. I think it's safe to say that everyone is ok with being less active at times when there's just too much in your mind and you're having a hard time. And everyone in here are less or more active too for their own reasons. Life ain't much fun ._.
And well... I know you don't know me really and it might sounds straight, but don't hesitate to ever pm or something if you ever feel like talking. I'm a good listener (:

[pandora chevalier ღ]

-snuggles-

Thank you very much. ♥ And blargh... e_e Cancer seems to be everywhere I look nowadays and I hope you can find the strength, I haven't to move on. :/ And I am also here too. ♥

[asahria ryek']

I don't want to say I know your pain, because we all experience things differently, but I too have had such experiences and for that I can sympathize with you. This isn't something one can just move past easily and I wish you the best in overcoming the pain. You are loved here and we could all expect nothing less from you. Take your time and do what you need to do. Whether you are here posting or not, you know that your BB family is here offering you love and support. Wish you the very best darling!